Ironic that after 3 months of bedrest and pretty steady contractions for 20+ weeks, I am STILL pregnant with no signs of going into labor. My appointment yesterday was another let-down with me having NO change. NONE. I've never been pregnant this long. It's not funny. I'm frustrated.
With the girls, I was dilated to a 3-4 by 37 weeks and both were born around 39 weeks (water breaking). I don't see that happening with this stubborn little guy....although I am REALLY hoping. Every night I go to bed I play out what I will do if I go into labor. But then I wake up still pregnant so it's a futile attempt.
I didn't really want to be induced today though. For one, I am not due until Sunday so I am still holding out hope of going on my own. Two, according to all my ultrasounds, my week doesn't turn over until Wednesday. So maybe I am really not due until next the 21st. I am terrified of a LONG HARD labor and a possible C-section (which I know is not a given, but I have been reading that 40% of inductions end up in C-section). I was struggling to decide, but it turns out that my doctor didn't even give me the option (although I could've pushed it probably). I think if I had been more dilated and effaced, he might have mentioned it as a possibility. SCRATCH THAT IDEA THOUGH.
But I did suck it up and schedule my induction for next Friday. I refuse to go further than that....freaked out or not. Actually, we will go in Thursday night to get started. That is weird to me, because I have always heard of women going in early in the morning....but whatever. Hopefully I won't have to worry about it at all. Ya know. Maybe I will go into labor tonight. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!! I hope the baby isn't getting super huge in there.
Here's some good news though: I didn't gain ANY weight at this appointment. In fact, I lost 1 pound! That is coming from a girl who has been gaining 1 & 2 pounds a week for a long time. I'm happy about that. I'm hoping to lose about 15 more by next week ;).
So there it is. I am still pregnant. Who would have thought? Am I really high-risk for pre-term labor or is it all a fluke? I'm having a hard time believing it anymore.